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You know that feeling
When you feel like you've hit the bottom
But then
You find out there some nasty trick takes away the floor below you?

That's how I'm living right now
No faking, no joking, no bullshit

You wake up with the feeling something is in your throat, and you can't swallow it
No matter how much water or booze you drink

Your head hurts so much, like you're standing upside down
And you feel there are no narcotics to make it stop aching

When you are alone, the same images and thoughts restart running through your mind
And there's no way to stop it

You want to live, but instead you just survive
Day by day

You wait for someone to tell you what's the right thing to do
Give you the full explanation of this and that

But who knows?
The people who experienced the same situation?
But how?
Every slight variation changes the whole situation

There's no way you can figure out what to do, you just have to take an option
And hope that probabilities are on your side

I've got to live life, minute by minute
Make sure I'm not wasting time
Hoping to find a better day